- I am not here for it. This is broad and could mean anything/everything. Mostly it means your bullshit. If your tone is on a fuck level, I will not entertain it because I cannot just punch you in the face. Being grown means not punching everyone in the face....but wanting to.
- It can all be a lot. Sure everyone is going through their own shit at different times and we all handle it differently. I definitely meditate, walk, drink, laugh, hang with homies, etc. to keep me sane and the stress levels on low. Sometimes it can all be too too much- for instance, I have the normal paying bills and being broke thing....but then I had/have the being entirely too busy at my job, death in family, normal 'being my feelings like Drake' ish, the MTA commute, people are pieces of shit, etc.
- The MTA Commute. I don't think I need to elaborate. If you live in New York City and have to take the subway on a daily basis, you know how much it all SUCKS. We spend all this money on pissy smells and guys leering at you stroking themselves through their pants. Ugh.
- People are pieces of shit. Again, I shouldn't have to elaborate...but...yeah, for the most part, people are the worst. Once in a while you can meet incredible beings or you know them already....but mostly...MOSTLY, people are the fucking worst.
- #BlackLivesMatter. With all the recent shit going with black people getting killed by police/random white people, etc., which has caused white people to become uncomfortable with all this talk of race n' shit and therefore reflecting on their privilege-whew- it weighs heavy on my head and heart. Especially when I have to see this privilege every day or hear coworkers discuss their shitty conservative views. It is getting harder to have hope and not HATE THE WORLD. Why would I want to have children? Why would I want to believe in anything good????
- Lack of sleep. Sleep is my homie and when I lose it for too many days in a row, then it makes for a crabby Cashmere.
- I need a vacation. Ugh, but it takes planning and shit....BUT I will be going somewhere this fall, just have to figure out WHERE.
- Because....fuck you and choke on a dick.
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
A Guide To Cashmere: Why? Pt. 1
Why is Cashmere's face like that/ why is she 'crabby'?